It’s the first Wednesday of the month which means it’s … Insecure Writers Support Group day! Thanks as always to Alex J. Cavanaugh for hosting and organising this fantastic event. You can check out the rest of the participants here, and pop along to visit some more insecure writers and offer your support.
Well, I’m going for a fairly upbeat tone to my IWSG post this month. I’m reflecting back on a few of my recent insecurities and seeing whether I’ve improved … or not.
- September: Procrastination and daughter’s first day at school
- October: Doing an MA in creative writing
- November: Going to the Festival of Romance as an Indie author
- February: Public Speaking
Well, back in September I was worried about all this new freedom once my daughter started school. Ha! What a joke! There is no freedom – there is just more and more stuff to do, and less and less time for writing. I’m not sure how this has happened, but it’s up to me to sort it out. I know I need to be more disciplined and impose proper working hours on myself. (But where’s the fun in that?)
In October I was worried about the MA I’d just started. I felt out of my depth and unsure if I could operate on the level required. I’m not worried about that anymore. I’d say I was slap bang in the middle of ability and talent in the group – not the best by a long chalk, but I’ve got as much right to be there as anyone else.
In November I was anxious about going along to the Festival of Romance and being asked the dreaded question: ‘Who are you published by?’ It did happen, and I held my head up high and said, ‘I’m Indie.’ And no one sneered or threw things at me. (Although there was a horrible incident with a mean-spirited author – check out December’s IWSG post.)
And last month I confessed to all and sundry about my stammering past and very real fear of speaking in public. I had some wonderful messages of support, and I’ve made it my mission to challenge myself to at least one safe-ish speaking event this year.
I feel quite exhausted after all that! Right now I don’t have time to be insecure about anything writing-related – I’m too busy running to catch up with all the things I’m supposed to be doing/supposed to have done already. But I hope you are having a good week and in the words of the very lovely Frasier: ‘I’m listening …’